Closer to believing

Today I read a posting from my friend titled Healing Doesn’t Mean No More Temptations. It answered my question in my earlier posting. It says for some people who want to quit from their crossdressing, the miracles if it can be said so happen to them. They can quit. But for the others, the miracles don't happen,  desires for crossdressing and temptations will only gradually lessen.

In reality, we are only human. And  to err is human to forgive divine. Even when Paul appealed to the Lord to remove the thorn that was given to him in his flesh, the Lord said to him, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. ( 2 Corinthians 12:9 )

Maybe if we compare it with the world of health, we look alike  an outpatient and must take medication every day until the end of our life. We must deal with medicine and disease in our whole life.

I am closer to believing than I ever was before

On the crest of this elation must I crash upon the shore
And with the driftwood of acquaintance
Light the fire to love once more I am wind blown...i am times.

To be closer to believing To be just a breath away
On the death of inspiration I would buy back yesterday
But there's no crueller illusion There's no sharper coin to pay
As I reach out... it slips away

From the opium of custom to the ledges of extremes
Don't believe it till you've held it Life is seldom what it seems
But lay your heart upon the table And in the shuffling of dreams
Remember who on earth you are

I need me You need you We want us

But of course you know I love you Or what else am I here for
Only you not face to face But side by side for evermore
And I need to be here with you For without you what am i
Just another fool out searching For some heaven in the sky

Take me closer to believing Take me forward lead me on
Through collision and confusion While there's life beneath the sun
You are the reason I continue So near for so long
So close yet so far away

I need me You need you We want us to live forever

So don't let the curtain fall Measure after measure
Of writing on the wall That burns so brightly
It blinds us all

I need me You need you We want us to be together
On sundays in the rain Closer than forever
Against or with the grain To ride the storms of love again

So be closer to believing Though your world is torn apart
For a moment changes all things And to end is but to start
And if your journey's unrewarded May your God lift up your heart
You are windblown But you are mine