Oh, I
really understand what you need, darling. It's good to have a sleep
tight and sweet dreams to accompany your sleep. With your body lies very
safely on your bed with your hands and feet nicely tied tightly. You
can't toss and turn, so you can't drop out of the bed. And you have
soother in your mouth. But you forget one thing that is a lullaby to
accompany your sleep. So here it is my lullaby for you. You may hum to
this song, while your mouth is sucking your soother. Sleep tight just
like a baby, darling.
Good night, good night.... Look at that moon shine so bright.
And tonight he smiles especially for you.
Sleep tight, sleep tight. Know everything is alright.
And tonight I will be here watching over you.
For tonight I will be here watching over you.
Tonight I’ll be here watching over you.
Sweet dreams, sweet dreams. It is never as real as it seems.
And in the morning when you wake up I will be right here.
Sleep on, sleep on. For no matter how dark or how long
It may seem that your night is I will still be here.
I will still be here watching, watching over you.
So sleep, little darling, sleep on through.
So be still, be still For you know that I always will
Tonight and forever be watching over you.
For tonight and forever, be watching over you.
So sleep, little darling, sleep on through.
There may be an om in moment But there's very few folk in focus Not the first, not the last, not the least. You needn't be well to be wealthy But you've got to be whole to be holy Fetch the rope, fetch the clock, fetch the priest. Oh this planet of ours is a mess I bet Heaven's the same Look the madman said, "Son, As a friend, tell me what's in a name," Hallowed be thy name.
I give you the state of statesmen And the key to what motivates them On the left, on the right, on the nail Still I don't see a man in a mansion That an accurate pen won't puncture Go to town, go to hell, go to jail. And there's bars and saloons Where the jukebox plays blues in the night Till the madman says "Son, Time to go we could both use some light" And thy will be done.
We live in an age of cages The tale of an ape escaping In the search for some truth he can use But many a drunk got drunker And mostly a thinker, thunker Set the place, set the time, set the fuse, The optimist laughed and the pessimist cried in his wine And the madman said "Son, Take a word they'll all wake given time" Let thy kingdom come
The madman and I got drunker Till both thought the other thank you And we laughed all the way to the stars The optimist asked for a taste of the pessimist's wine And the madman said "Son, How do you feel?" I said "Me? I feel fine Lead me into temptation Into temptation I said into temptation I need my allocation of recreation I want a revelation in degradation No hesitation, give me variation, give me inspiration..."
One day I chat with my friend. He is a crossdresser. One thing leads to another. He said that he ever asked a priest about this question, is it sinful if a man dressed like a woman ? The priest said that it is not sinful as long as a man only dressed up in woman dress and not more. But if he masturbated while imagining a girl, that is a sin. About a verse in Old Testament that says God dislike a man who dressed like a woman ( Deuteronomy 22:5 ), he said that it was not in used anymore. Nowadays that is in use is the New Testament.
Truly I'm a bit confused with what he said. Did he say the truth or tell a lie ? But I think he told the truth. So, in my thought the church itself now consider a man dressed up in a woman dress as not sinful. If that is really true, so I can do crossdressing with relieved. As long as I don't masturbate with imagining a girl in my fantasy.
But what if the priest drunk when he said that ? I think that possibility is small. Or he is just too optimistic ? I don't think so, because there's rules in church that regulate everything.
One of my friend who is a former crossdresser after succeeded stopping from his crossdressing still doubted whether crossdressing is a sin or not. After all what he has done with diligently, he still said maybe crossdressing is not a sin.
My crossdresser friend then continued his explanation. He said that is a sin if a man changes his sex, because sex is a gift from God. But in Indonesia, we have an artist who was a male then did a sex surgery and became a female. Finally she became a hajjah as well. Whether our planet is in a mess ?
If so, I need my allocation of recreation. I want a revelation in degradation. No hesitation, give me variation, give me inspiration. Oh, sorry! I just carried away and follow to sing that song.
Today I read a posting from my friend titled Healing Doesn’t Mean No More Temptations. It answered my question in my earlier posting. It says for some people who want to quit from their crossdressing, the miracles if it can be said so happen to them. They can quit. But for the others, the miracles don't happen, desires for crossdressing and temptations will only gradually lessen.
In reality, we are only human. And to err is human to forgive divine. Even when Paul appealed to the Lord to remove the thorn that was given to him in his flesh, the Lord said to him, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. ( 2 Corinthians 12:9 )
Maybe if we compare it with the world of health, we look alike an outpatient and must take medication every day until the end of our life. We must deal with medicine and disease in our whole life.
I am closer to believing than I ever was before
On the crest of this elation must I crash upon the shore
And with the driftwood of acquaintance
Light the fire to love once more I am wind blown...i am times.
To be closer to believing To be just a breath away
On the death of inspiration I would buy back yesterday
But there's no crueller illusion There's no sharper coin to pay
As I reach out... it slips away
From the opium of custom to the ledges of extremes
Don't believe it till you've held it Life is seldom what it seems
But lay your heart upon the table And in the shuffling of dreams
Remember who on earth you are
I need me You need you We want us
But of course you know I love you Or what else am I here for
Only you not face to face But side by side for evermore
And I need to be here with you For without you what am i
Just another fool out searching For some heaven in the sky
Take me closer to believing Take me forward lead me on
Through collision and confusion While there's life beneath the sun
You are the reason I continue So near for so long
So close yet so far away
I need me You need you We want us to live forever
So don't let the curtain fall Measure after measure
Of writing on the wall That burns so brightly
It blinds us all
I need me You need you We want us to be together
On sundays in the rain Closer than forever
Against or with the grain To ride the storms of love again
So be closer to believing Though your world is torn apart
For a moment changes all things And to end is but to start
And if your journey's unrewarded May your God lift up your heart
You are windblown But you are mine
